1. EVERYTHING THAT’S LOST

Born during morning chapel so much damage to unravel
Picking out the sand n’ gravel wish I could time-travel
Before the nursery through my family tree
I’d bring my boxing gloves, righteous anger - toward love

And Everything that’s lost will one day be found
Everything that’s living composted, turned around
Giving birth to flowers, melody and brand new song
Clean energy, fresh atmosphere, like ripples on a pond

Razzle, dazzle, frizzle, frazzle, swinging justice like a gavel
Inner-turmoil and battle, wish I could time-travel
Not to Galilee but through my family tree
I’d bring my boxing gloves, righteous anger - toward love

I’d say, “Peace.” “In You.”
“unleash these burdens that have bound”
And together we’d sit.
Expelling we’d expound life to this hallow breeding ground.

I’d say “There is no need for performance.”
“You can sing a new refrain”
curses have been broken over our family name.

And Everything that’s lost will one day be found
Everything that’s living composted, turned around
Giving birth to flowers, melody and brand new song
Clean energy, fresh atmosphere
like ripples, Like ripples, like ripples on a pond

2. HEAVEN

I’m overworking for what does not satisfy
Exhausted feeling like my well is cracked and dry
I could use some fresh coffee and a slice of warm bread
Some order to this chaos swirling in my head

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are my ways your ways
Heaven calls us higher but earth begs us to stay

So over this recovery, how could there still be more
You’re dancing with your Jesus, I am crying on the floor
Singing songs of celebration, well I’m feeling ignored
My anxiety is packing up, I’m headed for the door

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are my ways your ways
Heaven calls us higher but earth begs us to stay

So I called God on the telephone said i had enough
after many years of cowering, starting to stand up
To these lies i have much stalk in, the foundations of my faith
these holiness traditions these lies, I have to break!
for they've separated kindness from your unconditioned love
They made your mercy judgment, they’ve kept you up above

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are my ways your ways
Heaven calls us higher but earth begs us to stay
Heaven calls us higher but earth begs us to stay

3. CONCRETE

You pushed your brother into me and as it broke my leg
From the middle of the parking lot, you ran away
30 minutes cried for mercy, screamed for release
Twisted-in my bicycle on white concrete, there was no relief

As I bowed at the altar, at that summer camp in June
Never felt more invisible than as you played that never ending tune
Begging Holy Spirit visit. “Please any little sign”
My tears soaking the carpet, I sobbed until my eyes went blind

There was no divine intervention
No crowd of angels defending
There was no answer, No communication
Know time does not heal everything, No time does not heal everything

That day that you came over, I should a doubled locked the door
But I thought in my naivety, all things could be restored
As I repeated sorry, watching best friendship cease
Weeping on my face in front of you, raising the white flag of surrender and retreat

There was no glorious conclusion
No exchange for suffering
There was no hopeful resolution
Know time does not heal
No time does not heal
Know Time Does not Heal Everything

4. COMING UNGLUED

Tears in eyes creeping behind my thoughts
are from your words that tie me in knots

So blessed Lord Jesus, what should I do?
They say they love you and I love you too!

The widespread dysfunction that some cannot see
has me questioning God and my sanity
So blessed Lord Jesus, what should I do?
They say they love you and I love you too!

All of these questions and answers in red
Tell me these problems are not just in my head
Know they’re something more tangible an incongruent swell
They drag me down south of heaven, park me outside of hell

I sought to be capable speak words that are true
Lay down my defenses open up to you
But that plan was a failure a paper to shred
So my eyes are wide-open when I’m bowing my head

And I’m coming unglued / coming unglued
Coming unglued again
Yes I’m coming unglued / coming unglued
Coming unglued again

With no clear path forward, to avoid being crushed
Giving voice to the pain, I’ll admit my distrust
Of the people who love me, the people I know
Who cry when i’m hurting and cheer when I grow

And I’m coming unglued / coming unglued
Coming unglued again
And I’m coming unglued / coming unglued
Coming unglued again

So blessed Lord Jesus, what should I do?
They say they love you and I love you too!

5. MAKING REPAIRS

Lord I give You everything inside of me I give You everything that I can’t find
Like the letters that I wrote to myself when I was losing my mind

I bought an Ipod thought it would fix me but I haven’t plugged it in two years
I booked a tour called it vacation but everytime I leave home in tears

Call it disruptive I’d say I’m lucky I’d ruptured my internal affairs
My heart was broken, I needed a new one, new one, new one, new one
I’ll be in the basement making repairs

I got a mountain bike when I was 15, a faithful friend with nearly 20 gears
I rode it once in my new city, they stole off the back of my stairs

Call it disruptive I’d say I’m lucky I’d ruptured my internal affairs
My heart was broken, I needed a new one, new one, new one, new one
I’ll be in the basement making repairs

Another birthday, another year past
I wish I felt like celebrating
Instead the sadness is rubbing my shoulders
And the downward spiral is repeating

But it’s existential it’s not real these feeling that I must have made up
But they’re real enough that my self-hatred is something that I need to interrupt

So, Lord, I give You everything inside of me
the brokenness that I’ve been trying to hide
Like the parts inside me of that I lost when I was running so blind

Call it disruptive I’d say I’m lucky I’d ruptured my internal affairs
My heart was broken, I needed a new one, new one, new one, new one
I’ll be in the basement making repairs
I’ll be in the basement making repairs
I’ll be in the basement making repairs

6. LIGHTNING

When the light shines in the darkness When we acknowledge our need
When the hurt meets restoration When forgiveness reaches deep
When the fallout is uncountable From the damage we have done
With shortsightedness, Uninvited-ness, What have we become?

So where no hope is found
When silence is the loudest sound
With triumphance and resound
May your love break forth as the lightning touches down

When so tiresome. Glad the day is done. When I finally close my eyes.
When there’s nothing more than “i’m so sorry for” my actions that show me incomplete.
When I split two, my sin like a corkscrew, reveals what I consider to be true

So where no hope is found
Where silence is the loudest sound
With triumphance and resound
May your love break forth as the lightning touches
May your love break forth as the lightning touches
May your love break forth as the lightning touches down

7. BOMBS

I don't want to see the bombs drop anymore
I don't want to see the kingdoms fall
Know I don't want no one to hurt at all
I don't want no one to hurt at all

Hypocrisy in me is called indifference
Clinging to the safety nets held true
Jesus did you come to build an empire
Or to humbly love us like you do?

I don't want to see the bombs drop anymore
I don't want to see the kingdoms fall
Know I don't want no one to hurt at all
I don't want no one to hurt at all

A lover and a liar and an idiot
That is who I'll tell you that I am
Caught up in a world of contradictions
I will choose to trust there is a plan

I don't want to see the bombs drop anymore
I don't want to see the kingdoms fall
Know I don't want no one to hurt at all
I don't want no one to hurt at all
Know I don't want no one to hurt at all
I don't want no one to hurt at all

8. TRUST

I’ve been fighting with my demons so long
That I know their family history first, middle initial and last name
I’ve been living with this fear for so long
That I know the questions asked every time it wants to come along

Many years I faltered chasing a remedy
bound by false perceptions I follow religiously
not just self-protection but a life chiseled of fear
this once was my inheritance dictator, puppeteer

Still I will trust in the name of the lord I will trust in the name
I will trust in the name of the lord I will trust in the name …. of the lord

The Lord makes my demons afraid
says fear you have to leave you may under no circumstances stay
Says anxiety you must cease
Burdens and oppressions you’ve been released
And No longer will we SUFFER in exile estranged
And No longer will we SUFFER in loneliness and shame
Says I’ll create a place of honor a home upon this earth
S’I’ll create a place of honor and you will know your worth
Yes, You will know your / you will know your / you will know your worth

I will trust in the name of the lord, I will trust in the name
I will trust in the name of the lord, I will trust in the name
I will trust in the name of the lord, I will trust in the name
I will trust in the name of the lord, I will trust in the name …. of the lord

9. BETTER

It’s safer on the sidewalk in the shadows out of sight
When a cutting glance of disapproval will give you frostbite
Yes it’s simple to distract yourself while knowing people die
I just focus on the task at hand, straighten up my tie

But I think we can do better, a whole lot better, a whole lot better than this
Yes I think we can do better, a whole world better than this

A cheap shot to the injured, isolated, in bad health
Is easy if you believe they did it to themselves
Yes I most often hurt the people I love
It's easy to forget that the hurting need a hug

But I think we can do better, a whole lot better, a whole lot better than this
Yes I think we can do better, a whole world better than this

But left with my devices in the hand I was dealt
I would sit on the couch lamenting how I felt
I would seek first my security ignoring cause and effect
I’d stay inside my head and never turn my neck
But it’s hard to find your footing keeping one foot in the grave
It’s hard to get momentum when you always hesitate
Yes we can travel all we want but we can’t escape
We’re all in this together with a cross-stitched fate

But I think we can do better, a whole lot better, a whole lot better than this
Yes I think we can do better, a whole world better than this

And I think we can do better, a whole lot better
To those friends and family out in the weather
To those people we’d rather punch than kiss
I think we can do better, a whole world better than this

Yes I think we can do better, a whole lot better, a whole lot better than this
Yes I think we can do better, treat the whole world better than this

Short Form Bio:

Nate Allen is a husband, father, friend, mystic, writer and songsmith (Destroy Nate Allen / Nate Allen & The Pac-Away Dots), who has been touring the US since 2004. With his new endeavor, Good Saint Nathanael, Nate ventures into quiet, very vulnerable territory. Hide No Truth, the project debut, has been hailed by critics as "an introspective masterwork" (IDIOTEQ), "a treasure worth reflecting upon time and time again" (A Diverse Sound), and "an earnest, melancholic, and impossible to forget album" (SpinDitty).

Long Form Bio:

Near the end of Nate Allen’s first Destroy Nate Allen tour he spray painted the words “My Goal Is Resolution” boldly on his acoustic guitar. The vulnerability and complexity of that statement unknowingly charted a course for his life. 

With his new project Good Saint Nathanael, Nate Allen is turning to face his demons leading with a rare, disarming vulnerability. On Hide No Truth, the harder Nate looks at himself in the mirror, the more humanity reveals its bitter, beautiful complexity. 

The nine songs on Hide No Truth find Nate stripping back his sonic palette to reveal stark, memorable, acoustic songs full of detail and intention. 

In what is a cathartic move towards self-choice, honest art and emotional health, Nate uses religious language to explore human vulnerability and his own broken Christian religious experience. 

Hide No Truth was recorded and mixed by Jon Terrey (Listener, The Chariot). Then Nate assigned different friends to add whatever their vision of “noise” was to each track, further adding to the haunting soundscape. Lastly, the record was mastered by Jim Demain at Yes Master Studios (John Prine, Frank Black, June Carter Cash).